Because I Felt Everything; A poem from my collection

 

The Things I’ll Never Say

There are words

I’ve carried so long
they’ve fused with my spine.
Not because I’m hiding—
but because speaking them
might undo me.

Like:
I wish you had stayed.
Like:
I was never okay after that.
Like:
I loved you more than I should have,
and you knew.

These things—
they live in the pause
between my inhale and my answer.
In the way I text “I’m fine”
instead of “I’m falling apart.”
In the smile I paste on
when the room is too loud
to be honest.

I’ve written letters
I’ll never send.
Had conversations in my head
that ended with someone finally saying,
“I’m sorry.”
But silence is safer.
It doesn’t require forgiveness.
Only endurance.

There’s a version of me
that speaks it all—
every wound,
every wish,
every “I miss you”
I buried out of pride.
But she’s too brave
for this world.
She doesn’t survive
where people punish
vulnerability.

So I keep the words soft.
Swallowed.
Stacked like bricks
in the mouth of a well.
And if I’m quiet,
it’s not because I have nothing to say.
It’s because I’ve said it
too many times
to people who never listened.

The truth?
I’m full of language
I’ll never be fluent in.
And still,
I write.
Because some confessions
only make sense
when spoken to the page.

📘 Because I Felt Everything
Fifty poems for the over-feelers—the ones who carry too much and love too hard. This is not about fixing your pain. It’s about letting you know you were never broken.
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